Time until Saturday, March 6, 2010
131 days 3150 hours 189000 minutes 11340048 seconds
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Starting over again
And now I find myself facing a new beginning. The emotions that are involved this time are much deeper than before. I didn't expect to find myself here on the brink of 40 and I had hoped to never be here again.
What do you do when you see your relationship just dying in front of you? I have been watching this for the past three years, not seeing any answers that were simple. When it finally came to a head, I was ready to have it end. But now that we have agreed to do so, the real journey for me begins.
The emotions are almost like dealing with a death of someone you were once very fond of. I think of the things I am going to miss. But then I also think of the things that drove me to this point....lies, betrayal, infidelity.
A lot of different thoughts run through my mind at any given moment....how do I tell my son, my family, my friends? When should I move? Nothing is ever as simple as it should be, as each decision I am faced with shapes what my future and the future of my son will be.
This is my journal on finding me again.
What do you do when you see your relationship just dying in front of you? I have been watching this for the past three years, not seeing any answers that were simple. When it finally came to a head, I was ready to have it end. But now that we have agreed to do so, the real journey for me begins.
The emotions are almost like dealing with a death of someone you were once very fond of. I think of the things I am going to miss. But then I also think of the things that drove me to this point....lies, betrayal, infidelity.
A lot of different thoughts run through my mind at any given moment....how do I tell my son, my family, my friends? When should I move? Nothing is ever as simple as it should be, as each decision I am faced with shapes what my future and the future of my son will be.
This is my journal on finding me again.
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